i'm back... eh.. i havent finish all my papers wor.. still got one more to go.. chemistry paper 1... haha.. i can study it tomolo... lol... i shall play today... erm.. about all my other papers.. chem paper 2 was alright.. coz i can do ma... except that i forget the formula PV=nRT... make me lose marks... cannot recall this formula, the rest of questions.. haha... cannot identify structure la... lol.. paper 3, not much confidence... due to time factor i guess.. and probably exam stress... alot of things i forget to take note.. haiz.. pure maths was alright but statistics sucks... last 2 questions i dunno how to do.. wth... arghz... physics was the horrible papers of all... paper 2 was "challenging".. in other words, i dunno how to do.. lol... paper 3 was alright.. especially the physics of fluid option topic.. the questions were rather standard... but the core topics... dunno alot... lol... still can laugh... the physics paper can do till cry sia... haha... really regret dropping econs... erm.. maybe i will be better with econs... if i know earlier that mrs tan is going to leave... guess i wouldnt stay with physics.. but also cannot blame her la... blame myself... din study hard... play too much.. so on and so on... haiz... i wan to start my jc life all over again.. if i had this opportunity... guess i wouldnt be wad i am today... hai.. back the exams... gp was shocking... never know paper 2 will come out one passage de... then the AQ i was kinda like crapping my way through... hope they dun notice la... lol...

was asking my friends whether jj had the space to keep my for another year... *u know wad i mean* haha.. was thinking rather negatively this few days... if i'm really given another chance at jj, think i wouldnt slack le.. like all my other seniors... see them so hardworking.. this exams should be no problem to them ba... dunno how i should go tell my parents that i maybe will have to study another year in order to go university... lol... think they will be so so mad at me ba.. maybe they throw me out of the house? lol... juz joking... my other friends wan to go poly... but spending three years in poly? i dun think that is wad i wan ba... haha... but anyway, results are still not out yet.. so i cannot give up hope... must strive for paper 1... haha... can help de... lol...

it's juz two days away from the examinations.. dunno whether to say i'm scared or i'm prepared.. had never been so scared of an exam before in my entire schooling experience.. hai.. maybe... i really dunno wad to say.. i'm trying my best to obtain wad i want, the road is tough.. it's not wad i expected..

wouldnt be posting any stuff for the next few weeks due to the exams.. or maybe i juz dun wan to comment anything on the exams la.. shall update on the 18/11/05.. it's when my last paper end.. wish me luck and pray for the best to happen ba..

Good Luck to everyone taking the 'A' level exams!

realised long time nv add new entry le.. since today so free, i shall blog one.. lol... been busy with school work coz exams coming le... 20+ days... nv really go count.. dun wan stress myself... even though i try not to stress myself, but still got other stress factor ar... like my friends, my studies, my life... wad to do... think the 18th year in my life is an unlucky one... things had nv turn out right since the start of this year... friends alway quarrelling, always bu shuang each other... but i cannot do anything about it.. when i try to help, i find myself too kapo.. haiz... studies are already at its pitfall, now friends... seriously la.. when will my bad luck go away??? hai.. been trying hard to patch my this two friends up.. but dunno la... maybe i shouldnt have put myself in this things la.. too busybody le.. see wad u end up? hai... try my best not to care le.. but imagine u eveyday go sch, see one friend so sad, the other one always getting angry with u, how can u not care... dunno what happen to them la.. i seriously dunno... wtf... maybe next time, i shouldnt help them le la.. keep my hands off them... sian la.. i really really dunno how to help la.. feeling so stress now la... sian sian sian... wad shld i do???

juz hope they can patch things up SOON...

IT'S ALL MY FAULT !!

prelims are over.. and i have reached the period of time where i'm going to get back my pathetic results.. today, luckily only got chem, gp and phy period... chem, i had gotten back our MCQs.. it's not well done, none of my papers will be well done la... haiz.. failed as usual.. nothing surprising.. but miseed by a bit.. 19/40.. still not good la.. hai.. then gp, ms chew say not well done.. but i expected that after going through the brain-draining paper two.. it suck totally.. wasnt feeling at the best that time, i gotten scores for phy MCQs.. i did okay in front which i am quite glad.. but the topics that mdm chee teach, it's terrible and i mean terrible... can u imagine, out of the first 20 questions, i had gotten 15.. the behind 10 question, i only got 1? how pathetic can it be.. suddenly realised that i know nuts about modern phy which include charged particles, quantum phy and nuclear phy... sian... really need to work doubly hard for my subjects le... hai... i can say that for the papers, i had tried my best to a certain extent but have room for improvement ba... maybe not totally focused? i dun know... but i will be starting my revision today le.. doing trigonometry and chem bonding for chem consultation tml..

thankfully, first week of my prelims are over... we are now left with chem and phy paper 1&2 which are not so taxing papers... hhehe... think wun do very well lor... coz maths and chem i din finish... then physics got alot dunno how to do... but hope can pass lor... celebrating shiyun birthday on the week after the prelims.. must really enjoy myself...

yesterday went for my cousin's wedding... wa.. the bride is so pretty.. hehe.. had a great meal too... hehe...

my future = no future?? sighz.. how pathetic can this become... i am currently living in darkness.. where everything is just so unclear... there's no light at the other end, neither do i see anyone standing there waiting for my arrival... what will i become? what will i do? i have a unclear future!!! i dunno what to do.. will someone, juz anyone come and guide me.. i'm lost.. i'm not me anymore.. suddenly i feel so foreign... i dunno who am i... i really dunno... when will the real me come back.. it's another mystery...

it's me i hate the most... i hate myself most... because of all the unhappiness i had brought into my life... because of all the regrets that i'm leaving behind... i'm leaving all this into something called the past... a unforgiven past... i'm starting a new me.. a brand new me.. nobody have seen it before.. juz let me let out my frustration for a few more days.. and i will become a new and nicer me.. please be patient and bear with me.. i dunno what other changes will take place, juz know that i need to get myself changed!

to all teachers that had taught me in one way or another, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!!

hehe... another holiday... after which, prelims are coming then A levels.. seriously speaking, i am not prepared... i am scare.. that i wun do well.. but there's no point backing out now... i know.. but i am really very discouraged... very i dunno how to say, sad, dishearted... haiz... i really dunno la.. everything in my life is all messed up... very messy... i dunno how to start "packing" it... i'm afraid of failure.. so everytime, i choose to give up.. i really dunno what to do with my life and my studies... i really dunno... can anyone just guide me? i guess i need God... nothing can save me now.. i'm in danger... of failing my 'A's, of letting everyone down... including the dearest me... haiz..

gotten back my physical chem test... i failed of course... haiz... i studied real hard for this test... but in the end, i still fail it... i am really very disappointed with myself... very very very very disappointed... wad should i do? i really dunno... should i just give up, or should i leave all this behind and start afresh? start afresh? it's difficult... that's why i dunno what to do!!! i really really dunno wad to do... i can only live in regrets now... sighz...

been in a stunned state ever since i got down from the 180 bus at the interchange.. guess who i saw? it's him!! never thought that i will be able to see him again... but there i was looking at him waiting for his bus.. i cannot describle the feelings.. but it's just not so right.. hai... things are just so unpredictable.. we never know what will happen in the next minute.. so treasure your time and dun let them be wasted... not like mine..