Reflections
Year 2005 was really a tough year for me.. but i managed to struggle through it.. From volleyball to studies.. Guess i really did spent alot of my time on volleyball.. because of that, i realised that i had lost alot of things as well.. like the times with my friends and my studies.. i didnt regret joining volleyball coz it's really a wonderful experience for me.. i knew alot of great friends and will definitely cherish these friendships.. however, i regret neglecting my studies.. remember the times where i came home from training and gave myself lots of crap reasons not to do the tutorials.. i seriously dislike the past me.. even after the competition, i still didnt put efforts into my studies to make it right.. was really a failure! played with the com, watch tv, eat and sleep.. always tell myself that i still have time.. finally the prelims came and my results were like shit.. thought that i would buck up for my 'A'.. i didnt! now, i'm starting to to regret it.. at the same time, i'm afraid that i cant make it to university.. i tried to think positive.. but somehow i cant help it.. every night when i lie on the bed and cant get to sleep, my mind went back to the scene of the exams.. Looks like the answers i gave in my physics paper are all like crap.. but no matter how bad, i promised myself that IF i really cannot make it (touch wood), i will work harder than this year even if i have to be a private student.. nobody hopes to be a repeat student ba.. neither do i.. so my new year wish is "Hope I will pass my 'A'levels and move on to university ". May my wish come true!